the hype

yES, i AM A SELF-CONFESSED NE-YO FAN. wHAT CAN i DO? HE IS REALLY GOOD. SEXY LOVE IS PLAYING AND I CAN’T HELP BUT HE MAKES ME SAY! LOL IT SUCKS WHEN YOU LISTEN TO SUCH SONG AND YOU REMEMBER THE ONE PERSON YOU CAN’T HAVE. iT’S NOT ONLY ABOUT THE PHYSICAL CONNECTION THAT THE TWO OF YOU SHARE, BUT THE EMOTION, THE FEELING, THE LOVE EVEN! i WANT THINGS TO BE RIGHT BETWEEN US BUT UNLESS HE MAKES A DECISION THEN I’M HEADING NOWHERE. iT’S NOT A PROBLEM TO ME…FOR NOW AT LEAST BUT NOTHING COMPARES TO WHAT WE HAVE..MAKING IT SO MUCH DIFFICULT FOR ME TO ACT, TO DECIDE, TO LET GO.

AND NOW “SO SICK” IS ON AND IT IS SORTA TRUE. THE PART WHERE HE SAID HE’S SO SICK OF LOVE SONGS THAT IS. i DON’T KNOW IF THIS IS A DARK LOVE BECAUSE IT DOESN’T FEEL THAT WAY. iT KINDA REMINDED ME OF PHOEBE HALIWELL FROM CHARMED. SHE WAS MADLY IN LOVE WITH COLE (THE DEMON) THEY EVEN GOT MARRIED BUT IT ALMOST RUINED HER. IT WASN’T A GOOD LOVE FOR HER. I WANT TO THINK OF IT THAT WAY FOR US BUT I CAN’T

WHY IS HE BORN ANYWAY IF HE’S NOT MEANT TO BE WITH ME? IS THIS ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS WHEREIN YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO KNOW FROM WHAT’S RIGHT OR WRONG? IF LEAVING IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO THEN WHY IS TIME MAKING THE OTHER PERSON THINK OTHERWISE MAKING YOU TO THINK OTHERWISE AS WELL?

MY DAD ALWAYS SAY TO ME THAT LIFE SHOULD BE EASY. I RESENT THAT. JUST BECAUSE HE’S AT HIS PEAK DOESN’T MEAN I SHOULD HAVE THE SAME LIFE THAT HE DOES. IT IS SO UNFAIR.

BUT THEN AGAIN, WHO SAID LIFE IS FAIR? NOBODY. i JUST WISH HE MAKES UP HIS MIND YOU KNOW? A SIMPLE DOING WHICH HE FINDS VERY DIFFICULT TO PUT INTO ACTION.. AND ONLY I KNOWS THE REASON.

BUT DAMN IT, I LOVE HIM STILL.

yES, i AM A SELF-CONFESSED NE-YO FAN. wHAT CAN i DO? HE IS REALLY GOOD. SEXY LOVE IS PLAYING AND I CAN’T HELP BUT HE MAKES ME SAY! LOL IT SUCKS WHEN YOU LISTEN TO SUCH SONG AND YOU REMEMBER THE ONE PERSON YOU CAN’T HAVE. iT’S NOT ONLY ABOUT THE PHYSICAL CONNECTION THAT THE TWO OF YOU SHARE, BUT THE EMOTION, THE FEELING, THE LOVE EVEN! i WANT THINGS TO BE RIGHT BETWEEN US BUT UNLESS HE MAKES A DECISION THEN I’M HEADING NOWHERE. iT’S NOT A PROBLEM TO ME…FOR NOW AT LEAST BUT NOTHING COMPARES TO WHAT WE HAVE..MAKING IT SO MUCH DIFFICULT FOR ME TO ACT, TO DECIDE, TO LET GO.

AND NOW “SO SICK” IS ON AND IT IS SORTA TRUE. THE PART WHERE HE SAID HE’S SO SICK OF LOVE SONGS THAT IS. i DON’T KNOW IF THIS IS A DARK LOVE BECAUSE IT DOESN’T FEEL THAT WAY. iT KINDA REMINDED ME OF PHOEBE HALIWELL FROM CHARMED. SHE WAS MADLY IN LOVE WITH COLE (THE DEMON) THEY EVEN GOT MARRIED BUT IT ALMOST RUINED HER. IT WASN’T A GOOD LOVE FOR HER. I WANT TO THINK OF IT THAT WAY FOR US BUT I CAN’T

WHY IS HE BORN ANYWAY IF HE’S NOT MEANT TO BE WITH ME? IS THIS ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS WHEREIN YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO KNOW FROM WHAT’S RIGHT OR WRONG? IF LEAVING IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO THEN WHY IS TIME MAKING THE OTHER PERSON THINK OTHERWISE MAKING YOU TO THINK OTHERWISE AS WELL?

MY DAD ALWAYS SAY TO ME THAT LIFE SHOULD BE EASY. I RESENT THAT. JUST BECAUSE HE’S AT HIS PEAK DOESN’T MEAN I SHOULD HAVE THE SAME LIFE THAT HE DOES. IT IS SO UNFAIR.

BUT THEN AGAIN, WHO SAID LIFE IS FAIR? NOBODY. i JUST WISH HE MAKES UP HIS MIND YOU KNOW? A SIMPLE DOING WHICH HE FINDS VERY DIFFICULT TO PUT INTO ACTION.. AND ONLY I KNOWS THE REASON.

BUT DAMN IT, I LOVE HIM STILL.

I told you everything I knew was true at that moment.
I knew I appeared insensitive and heartless when I told you I needed a break from us.

BUT Believe me, I did what was best for us and although you didn’t get it, I bared my soul and admitted my downfalls- EVERYTHING

It was I who was to blame for the sudden demise of our relationship.

I tried to save US and hopefully regain it with US being friends.

I was determined to reconcile the ruins of us.

We talked and I thought you were genuine in everything you said

I forgave you with what you did

And I stupidly assumed that you did the same for me too.

I thought we were cool about the transition from being US to being YOU and I as friends.

You told me everything you lied about in our relationship and I was happy that you finally did…

I, on the otherhand, had nothing to admit because I told you everything while we’re still us.

I was happy but

You changed suddenly

Now you don’t want to be friends.

I’ll stop trying already.

Frankly, I’m tired of all your BS!

controlling

smothering

if you want it to be that way

bring it on!

I guess it’s going to be one heck of a day for me… Ima get out and let nobody stop me.. Good morning world!!! :]

I don’t get my carrier lately.. they say the message has been sent but the people is not receiving anything!!! freakin’ annoying man!!!! get it fixed or we’ll be the one to fix u up!!!

I never knew twitter could be so much entertaining. lol

I am looking for something deeper but people tellin you what to do is blocking the way! ever way!! Let me step up my game….

Well, it takes more than talking to bring me down… TRY HARDER.

Experience do mold a person.. It certainlly molded me. I changed a lot….
ummm could this be a fact or an uneducated assumption?

help me out here… let’s deduce and delve on it.

Never hold a grudge to other people… It won’t get you nowhere.

We got to bear this one in mind…

I’m wanting to write something for this guy I adore so much but I can’t seem to get the message across… :[

I guess i’ve already said enough..I am still digging deep.Maybe there is still something to say.